.Friday, August 6, 2010 ' 9:39:00 PM Y
当一个人的北极星是很累人的事。因为她永远都高挂在空中，仿佛每一刻都在守护着那个人。
听说，那是北极星的诅咒。
那是她与宙宇相爱的惩罚。
但，或许她从都不曾后悔过。
或许永远守护着宙宇是她爱他的方式。
而我，也选择了北极星爱人的方式。
我希望能当北极星。
我要守护着你。
我要用我的方式去爱你。
我是北极星；你是天狼星。
是永远的传说。
你；是我的终点。
. ' 9:27:00 PM Y
我假装过去不重要，才发现其实自己做不到。原来发生过的事情和所有回忆，都只能选择不去想起，但永远都不可能忘记。
他给过的痛，我不会忘。
他说过的谎，我不会忘。
他给过的承诺，我不会忘。
我不会忘；因为我会恨。
我们的回忆无法重叠，那我们的未来也不会有交集。
希望那是我能给你的最后的宽容。
.Sunday, April 18, 2010 ' 7:46:00 PM Y
ohh yea.i reely tink tis sonq is superb nice yea.hahaas.
. ' 7:32:00 PM Y
i had the feeling to post this today yea.ferr no specific reasons.just to show my appreciation to this very special [someone] tat has changqed my life.[I woke up this morning, feeling damn unsafe, and i called you.
You greeted me wif the usual loving and embracing voice and then i felt, "heyys, jus wadd am i afraid of?"
Yea.thx so much. thx ferr being by my side.
Once, i was still a lost qirl, trying to seek shelter in this so damn scary world.
then you came, and became my shelter. you made me feel so safe.you qave me a shoulder to rely on.you qave me the huqs tat made me happy.you qave me the kisses tat brouqht so much warmth to my life.
It's lyk no-one cn ever hurt me aqain.no-one can ever make me cry aqain.i'm not alone.
Simple magics, simple smiles.but i felt everythinq you had to qive.
This is you.tis is wadd you do best.t
Now,nothinq will distant us.nothinq will hinder us.i promise.not even aqe.i may be young,but you made me matured.
You qave me absolute power.i'm qod damn thankful ferr tat.
You miqht not read tis.bt yea.i'll show you de everything i'm capable of qivinq.
Lovinq you is a risk i'm takinq,but i reely dun care.
I'll be the matured qirl tat is worth ferr you to keep by your side.i'll be the one wif nth you dislike.i'll be the one you want.i'll make you be proud of me.
Yea,lastly, thouqh you miqht still leave me in the future, but i'll definitely be stronq enuff by tat time.i'll always rmb the power and strenqth you had qave me once.i'll nvr disqrace you.i'll still make you be proud of me.]
.Saturday, January 9, 2010 ' 6:08:00 PM Y
ooo...lonq time nvr bloq lerhhx yea.hahaas.uhh.i on-ed de com jus nw, went to myyy bloq, and yea, view-ed de comment frm PASSERBY, and reely, it's sad-deninq.
uhh.i dunno who he/she is, and i dunno in wadd way hav i offended him/her, butbut, it's quite bad to say tat of ppl barhh.
at least i try not to, most of de time.
butbut if tis is seriously how PASSERBY feels, then i hav no comments yea.
i mean ppl can tink i'm fake, i'm siao zhar bo, or reely qrossed out, but i tink i'm still okayys wif it barhh.
if i qet to noe who tis PASSERBY is, i miqht tink he/she is qod damm fake, superb siao, and xtremely qrossed out too yea.but it's jus hw ppl learn to keep sm comments to themselves and learn not to hurt ppl's feelinqs barhh.
hahaas.at least tat's wadd i tink luhh.
even if i'm fake, siao and qrossed out, so wadd?
i quess it's either be my friend; or qet out of my life andand be my PASSERBY.
i quess i'll only chanqe ferr de ppl i love.yea.other than tat,i'm me.
so continue critisicing me if anyone wants to.
i quess aft so much thinq happened in myyy life, i learnt to look thinqs in a reely diff way.
i learnt to take thinqs easy and not create troubles.
i learnt to look myself in a real diff way.
i learnt to look for faults in myself.
i learnt to change myself ferr sm worthy ppl and reasons.
i learnt.
ppl do hate you ferr no reason.
ppl do betray you ferr sm reasons, and
not all ppl r frens aft all.
so yea.
be my fren or be my PASSERBY, love me or hate me.
ohh.and thanks a ton lots to PASSERBY01 yea.
i dunno why,but i feel lyk thanking you.reely.hahaas.
ferr tis issue,i reely hope it's de end.
if PASSERBY is ever sm1 in my life, then i wld b a ton lot qrateful if he/she wld critisice me face-to-face.
tat wld b beta barhh.hahaas.i tink i cn take tat beta.at least i noe who my frens are.
haix.enuff of sad-deninq stuff.
butbut i quess all de thinqs tat happened in my life recently r all sad-ded stuffs barhh.
not to mention all,jus school alone is sad-deninq.de first week already seem-ed lyk de first month.
and i reely wonder if i'm qnq to handle tis year well.
enq is reely touqh these days.wif my new enq tcher, ms betsy teo, everythinq seem-ed abit tensed up luhh.
hahaas.i mean she's reely strict and reely surprisinq smtimes.
butbut i quess tat wld help.enq is one of de main core subj marhh.so i quess it's reely qood of her to train us lyk tat.
den it's maths.i tink i'm sure to drop a.maths luhh.i'm takinq de dunno wadd a.maths test tis thurs and i tink i'm doomed.
i quess-ed i'll jus try my qod damm best barhh.
aye.wadeva larhh.as lonq as i leave nanchiauhiqh successfully tis year yea.hahaas.
aye.i dun wanna bloq about sadd-ed thinqs lerhh larhh.
I LOVE EEYORE!!!! hahaas.she's totally cute and i cant resist her luhh.my dad and mum bouqht me a biq eeyore teddy on x'mas last year yea.and it nvr leaves me.
i carry it almost everywhere.and it's totally cool.cos nw i've qot one biq and one small one.
well, i've onli qot a pic of de small one luhh.but it's cute sia.fyi.de tiara is mine.hahaas.
ohh.den another of my dream came true; i re-painted my room!!! hahaas.
actually i re-painted my whole hse larr.butbut i totally love my room nw.it's sorta pink and purple.mixed.hahaas.
post pic nxt time yea.
ohh.last but not least, check tis out;
hahaas.tis is one of my favourite toilet yea.
it's superb clean, refreshinq and nice!! hahaas.
.Wednesday, December 2, 2009 ' 4:46:00 PM Y
taq replies.yantinq: nah.i'm dnq fine yea.no worries!!! thx lots aniwae!!! :)
yantinq: ohh.btw,miss mi mre marhhx...hahaas...
stranqer: lamer...i noe who you are sia...hahaas.butbut thx lots aniwae...
yokelinq: thx ferr de link!!! :)
jaslin: omq.who wants you sia...hahaas...ohh.yea,tat's you i'm tokinq bout!!! hahaas..
tinqen: uhh.still dunno results yet.hope i did okayys barhhx.hahaas.thx lots aniwae...
deniseee: hahaas.thx ferr de taq!!! yea.i hope i did well too...
boo peepo!!! hahaas...dun reely feel lyk bloqqinq todayyy yea.ferr no apparent reason...
butbut reely tons of thx to peepo who reely cared bout me yea.THANK YOU!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
hahaas.
i quess that includes:
my dad; ferr listeninq to me everytime and providinq reely useful advice...
my mum; who whips up delicious meal ferr me wheneva i fell superb unhappy...ohh.and she's qod damm patient too!!
my bro,my sis; who tries superb hard to make me lauqh.hahaas.
chinbee; ferr listeninq to me too...
yantinq; ferr beinq dere!!!
amanda; who talks to me and made me realise thinqs aren't tat bad too.
stranqer(apparently i noe who);thx ferr wishinq mi.heartfelt thanks.
and many many more...
those not mentioned butbut has reely helped me,heartfelt thx too.
reely.
yea.lessons learnt and i quess ppl do make mistakes.
it's just important to face oneself and move on.
i'm quess i'm dnq it fine andand chionq-inq ferr o'levels too!!!
wish me luck!!!
hahaas.
.Tuesday, November 24, 2009 ' 12:54:00 PM Y
hahaas.peepo!!! lonq time nvr bloq lerhhx.u quys must hv miss-ed me damm much sia.hahaas.butbut aniwae,i'm bck yea.
ehh.i had a qood start todayyy.i mean my mum seldom not naq me to wake up de.but yea.todayyy she didnt naq.hahaas.
so yea.i overslept.
butbut nt my fault larhhx.
i was still dreaminq of tat quy who was screaminq a total crazy note yesterdae.
opps.ferr ppl who doesnt noe who, it's a quy frm dunman sec choir if i'm nt wronq yea.
they had a rehersal concert thinq tqt wif SJI, CJC and raffles choir at SJI chapel.
den tis quy screamed a reely superb-freakinq hiqh note.yea.i dreamt of it.hahaas.
yea.i woke up.did de usual stuff den went out ferr smth yea.
i reely wanted to qo de nyp business school's attachment de.haixx.bt i quess i'm qonna hv to miss-ed it lerhhx.
ehh.den when i was out in de bus,it seem-ed lyk i cld tink thru so much.
i mean i reely thot thru alot.
hahaas.
i realised tis freakinq world is damm realistic.
even ur bestfrens betray u ferr their own benefits or simply just cos dey feel lyk dnq so.it's lyk superb hurtful butbut yea.let's just accept it as a fact barhhx.
yea.recently a senior of nanchiau chorale asked if dere was sm-one i lyk.she said cos my msn msq sounded lyk i was in love.hahaas.
yea.but tat was once.nt nw.
i quess ferr no apparent reason,i qave up.
a damm lot of thinqs happened de last time i dated sm-one.
love shld b superb sweet de barhhx.but i quess i had lost de feelinq damm lonq aqo.
i love-ed and nw,all is left are thinqs to clear out and frens to b beware of.
i quess i'm just dwn on my luck barhhx.
i want my relationship to b one tat is reely nice yea.
butbut sm ppl reely tore my heart and broke-ed my trust.
andand dere r ppl who just cant accept break-ups and do smth to hurt you inturn.
tats reely bad yea.
andthen sm ppl reely close to you just makes it worse by spreadinq thinqs tat aren't true yea.
it's reely qod damm hard to pretend you dunno all these thinqs dey said bout you,wher in actual fact,you noe everythinq,be it fact or fake.
it's just hard to pretense and smile and still call dem frens,or even "sisters".
to me,hurtinq my frens lyk tat wld probably b de last thinq on earth to do.butbut i quess ppl r all different andand ppl do qrow.
perhaps i'm just too slow.
and now,i tink i realised,i learnt and i qrew.
sm thinqs r beta left unsaid.
sm times we just hv to pretend.
all tat is left to do is to accept.
accept de fact tat frens and sisters r humans too.dey hv desires.
accept de fact tat tis is a cruel world wif realistic society.nt everyone blieves you butbut i quess we cant qive up?
andand.
accept de fact tat dreams r meant ferr bedtime,and fairytales dun exist.ppl you tink will love you miqht just end up hurtinq you.
accept de fact tat hopes miqht not b tat stronq to last.hopes do break.
yea.i quess dere's tons mre stuffs to accept.butbut hw nuch mre cn i take?
if ppl do betray,ppl do doubt you,ppl do hurt you and hopes do break,den wadd is left?
i wld want to smile and say "it's okayys."
i wld want to smile and say "let's start aqain."
i wld want to smile and say "ppl do make mistakes."
i wld want to smile and say "i believe."
even if i'm hurtinq lyk hell,i wld still wanna smile and blieve.
perhaps it's just stupid butbut tis is me.
so dun hurt me.
dun hurt anyone.
it just doesnt feel riqht.
and it's nt left too.
hahaas.yea.
i want frens to be true.
i want love to be real.
i want fairytales to exist.
i want hopes to prevail.
i want de world to have peace.
i want everyone to be happy.
i want smiles tat will never disappear.
i want memories tat will nvr fade.
hahaas.yea.abit too qreedy butbut forqive me.
hahaas.
